Nothing Secedes Like Success!

[taste_is_sweet]

I finished my new novel yesterday. I put in the last edits, made sure the title page had the right info on it, and sent that sucker off. Hopefully to engender a six-figure bidding war between famous publishers before it gets snapped up by Joss Whedon.

My immediate future. Of course.

So, with the work finished and my wealth and fortune completely assured, you'd think that I'd be happy, wouldn't you? Well, so would I! Except for how I'm not.

Nope. Pretty much everything made me cry this morning. Nothing like trying to sing along to your MP3 player and getting choked up by songs that have nothing to do with your life.

The sad (sadder?) thing is, I know it's because the novel's finished. This has happened to me before. What should be an occasion for enthusiastic relief, or at least relief and alcohol, instead ends up giving me the blues for days. Because obviously, if I'm not working on something then I'm a useless human being, right? Not to mention that once the novel's been sent out into the big, bad world, there's a huge, enormous chance that no one will like it. And if no one likes my writing, then I'm a useless human being.

Wash, rinse, repeat ad nauseam.

So here I am, moping 'cause I've got something accomplished. Go, me. And now I get to add terror to misery by starting something else that maybe no one will like either.

Writing: It's not a job, it's a (completely self-imposed) torment! And yet I keep doing it anyway.

Isn't one of the definitions of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, and expecting a different result?

Comments

[ride-4ever.livejournal.com]

...and now my due South co-writer and I are on to the dSC6D Big Bang...no time for that depression and ALL THE TIME for what-the-fuck-am-I-insane-doing-THIS-again. *g*

And talk about a fandom having "legs like that"...the date was just announced for the 20th Anniversary due South fancon in Toronto.

[taste-is-sweet.livejournal.com]

Wow--a fancon? That's really cool. Are you going?

Best of luck with the bb! Is it a LJ comm? I'd love to check it out. :D

[ride-4ever.livejournal.com]

Yeah, the RCW 139 Con is THE con of due South fandom...held every other year in Toronto since 1996. Registration for the 2014 con opened 21 hours ago, and I got registered in the first hour. My due South co-writer bff will be going there from England and we'll be con roomies...and then I'll be going from Canada to England with her to work on next year's dSc6dbb. The bb is an LJ comm, yes, and our current bb fic will go live there on Canadian Thanksgiving Day at http://ds-c6d-bigbang.livejournal.com/

[taste-is-sweet.livejournal.com]

Wow, the FanCon and then a trip to England? That sounds like a terrific October!

[ride-4ever.livejournal.com]

The FanCon and the trip to England, that's August-to-September 2014. The October 2013 reference is to the dSc6dbb going live on Canadian Thanksgiving Day. (However, I actually am taking a fannish trip this October...taking a train ride out-of-state for a "4-day weekend" first time IRL meetup for Canadian Thanksgiving Day with a fellow dS fangirl ficwriter.)

[taste-is-sweet.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I realized that when I posted the comment that I had the date wrong. Sorry. :(

But August to September sounds pretty awesome. ;)

[taste-is-sweet.livejournal.com]

Thank you for the info. I'm not following the C6D LJ comm. :D